After a long vacation, I finally have some peace of mind. I feel rested, which is a feeling I haven't felt for a long time now. I still haven't gotten rid of the eternal chaos which resides in my mind though, but I've to some degree learned to live with it. So the combination of these two factors have made me somewhat at peace. Funny feeling. Just lying down, closing my eyes and watch every worry and regret disappear if only for a short time.

Speaking of time... I think I've gotten old. You know they say "the older you get, the faster the time goes"? For instance, it feels as if it was a month ago that MJ died. That sincerely scares me, as I feel that an entire year of my life has passed by without me noticing.

Life being rather boring and all, when it gets dark outside, things turn... Interesting. The most dangerous time is when the lights are out. It's as if the darkness lights up every single temptation. What's wrong, what's right, what's painful, what's sweet... It all shall be experienced even if it all ends with tears, seperation and regret. But then again, what's life without the intense emotions, no matter if they are negative? Also, having been a rather sinful person, I ask you guys... What's wrong with another sin?

~Metris aka. November